180 Degree Change

J   U   N   E

June is my sentimental month.

I have much to say about June. So many things come to mind: my wedding anniversary, our pup's birthday, my high school graduation anniversary and the anniversary of my diagnosis of & surgery for Crohn's disease. 

Each June I reflect on the latter event as a new aspect is revealed to me. Every year God shows me just a little bit more of his plan in my life, and every year I'm just a bit more grateful for my journey that has brought me here.

This past year I've seen the greatest direction in my journey. I wasn't quite sure why some things happened to me, but I accepted it, and I've shared my story with any and everyone. I wasn't quite sure why my younger brother had so many allergies, but when we discovered all of my husband's allergies, I thought it made a little more sense. What I've learned in the past year has completely shaken anything I thought I knew about my life before. It's funny, how one event in your life can just change as the years go on. How much I can learn from a 10 day hospital stay. My original memoirs are located here in which case you will read about my struggles and miraculous healing. Every time I read these words, I am filled again with hope, love, and thanksgiving to a merciful, omnipotent Savior. The truth is, my Crohn's journey and my Faith are so heavily intertwined, I cannot share one without the other.

In 2012 I reflected on the things I had learned since my surgery. That was my 4 year anniversary, and I thought I had learned it all. I thought God had revealed most of the reasons. I was wrong.

6 years ago today I was in a hospital bed recovering from surgery. 

5 years ago I was participating in Fish Camp where I met my husband 

2 years ago I was a newly wed, ecstatic to cook for my new husband, months later only to learn of his food allergies that was a catalyst for our health journey

8 months ago I learned the true meaning of the scripture "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen." - Hebrews 11:1


6 years ago, on my hospital bed the day before the surgery, I accepted a healing. In the following days in my talking with my Lord, I accepted a full healing and promise I would never have the pain again. As I've mentioned before, my scar is my rainbow. A little physical reminder to me of my promise from God. I had no idea how or why, but I had Faith in God's healing. I had Faith in a pain free life. As coached by my grandfather, a man of many healings, I cast out all doubt and clung to that promise, having Faith when others had doubts.

For 5 and a half years I held onto that promise.

This year, after we'd adjusted to a gluten-free, semi-paleo lifestyle, I stumbled across a resource from The Paleo Mom. What I learned was there were people with autoimmune diseases, specifically Crohn's, in remission from their disease, largely in part to their food choices and diet, as well as their lifestyle. There were people living with Crohn's who felt better and had reduced inflammation in their intestines by limiting certain foods from their diet by following The Autoimmune Protocol.

The lightbulb. The ah-ha moment. The pot of gold at the end of my rainbow.

For so long I had no idea how, I just believed the Lord had delivered me. This year I learned, all of my husband's food allergies finally forced me to become paleo, gluten free, dairy free, egg free, peanut free and soy free. All of these are suggested in the Autoimmune Protocol (AIP for short).




I was basically almost following the AIP diet; that was no coincidence. For the past few years, I thought my younger brother coached me into knowing how to cook for my future husband.



Ironically, God has actually used my husband to finally force me into a strict paleo lifestyle, for my own health. I have additionally have given up all grains and nuts, and am proud to say I so paleo I could give Wilma Flintstone a run for her money-er...dinosaur?


So where am I going? I'm not done yet learning all God has intended for my life. I know there are more things that will come out of this. There is hope for my future.

  

In general, my life looks completely different now than it did 6 years ago. I realized that when I compiled this comparative picture; there was so much more than the physical "then and now"





There is a 180 degree change in my life. Physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, gramatically...


This photo just sums up the self-control, discipline and inner peace I have now found. I'm done just pushing through life; there is a purpose in all I do, witness and have happened to me. There is focus, determination and hope; there is a plan for my future larger than I can imagine and better than I deserve.
What I started as a fun side-by-side comparison of my life and current accomplishments forced me to think about a lot more than the surface differences. I know I have a long road ahead of me; there is much, much more for me to learn. But with my Faith in Christ, a soul mate equally accepting of & excited for OUR life adventures, and supportive friends & family, I know this road will not be hard. I might stumble, I might take a few steps forward & a few steps back, but I am on the right path.

   

As I read earlier today,

"I lift up my eyes to the hills-- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip-- he who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you-- the LORD is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm-- he will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore." -Psalm 121


The inner peace, that's from the Lord.

~@Rachel_Unrefined

My name is Rose....This is a true story.

Since James and Rocky were gone this evening, I ran a few quick errands after work and ended up at my parents' house for dinner. We spent the evening chatting, laughing, playing with Jack (my parents' dog) and introducing my parents to movies from Redbox. At the end of the night I almost escaped without my mother pushing a box of my things into my car to take back to my house. Included in this box, she gave me recently re-discovered schoolwork masterpieces.

In case you are unable to read that beauty, it reads: 

"Hi! My name is Rose. I got my name from my mom. She said I was a Rose and my brothers are two thorns." -Rachel Armentrout 

Now that you are done laughing and thinking that my mother is counting her lucky stars to have a daughter so that she doesn't only have to deal with thorns (just kidding brothers), I have to focus in on a detail. Guys.....  "This is a true story." No, I didn't actively expect to be called Rose, but as many of my current friends have heard me share, whenever I would 'play house' with friends, I would love to pretend my name was Rose, (sometimes Crystal, but there's no significance there). I'm sure this is a mere coincidence, right? LOTS of little girls choose this name to play with, right? Well I'm unsure about the exact number of Rachel's in the world going by the name 'Rose', or 'Rosie', but I don't believe in coincidences.

If you know me now, you know I am a Rosenbaum. Yes, my married name is German for something along the lines of "Tree Roses".  Now before you jump to any conclusions, no, I did not marry the first guy I found with a last name similar to a play name from my childhood. That sounds like a horrible reason to date or marry anyone. In fact, I had no part in planning this out, it all just fell into place. It's as though it was the plan all along; some people choose to call it 'destiny.'  Who knew at the ripe age of 8 years old, I would choose to go by a name eerily similar to my future husband's nickname, Rosie? Well, there is One who knew this.

When I went off to college, I had every intention upon majoring in accounting.  After all, I knew I liked numbers and didn't see myself anywhere else but in a business degree, but all along I knew my number 1 priority was to get my MRS Degree. My biggest dream was/is to someday be a "soccer mom"; I look forward to having a family.  You say, "Yes Rachel, we know this, we've seen your 'dress up in sports apparel' theme attempts." Well, about 2 weeks into my first accounting class, I realized that perhaps Accounting wasn't for me, and I better figure out what I did enjoy.  I quickly decided upon Marketing as my major.  Over the next few semesters, I, Rachel Armentrout, made the decision that actually, I was also possibly more interested in floral design, and maybe I'd figure out how to include this in my future plans, as well. One minor in Horticulture later, I graduated with the ability to do most of my own flowers for my wedding. I did so, and just this year I have actually started a floral side-business.  I'm looking forward to making flower arrangements and seeing how this new dream pans out.

Where am I going with this? I have had a dream to work with flowers and a dream to have a wonderful home garden for about 2 years now. It was about my Junior year in college that I said, "Hey, I think I like this flower stuff enough to seriously pursue it. I don't know why it never stuck out to me before. How could I go my whole life without enjoying the love of gardening and flowers?" Seriously, I thought this was a new endeavor, a newly found love. After all, I spent too much time dressing up before to get dirt under my fingernails.

 Oh. 

 

I guess I was the only person who didn't see that decision coming. Are you meaning to tell me that mayyybe flowers and gardening was an inherent love I had, and it just took me 20 years to finally make the conscious decision to pursue this path?


The second piece of artwork my mother gave me was a poster-board. Unlike the first masterpiece that my mother and I have laughed at for many years, I had completely forgotten about this project. I don't know what compelled my mother to save it for all of these years...funny how these things just work out, right?

   "A Fragrant Rose" -2002

 

OKAY! I GET IT! "Deciding" to love everything about flowers wasn't something new to me, as much as I thought it was! Perhaps I had this love deep down and was unable to pinpoint it earlier on because I wasn't able to see how it could be a lifestyle.  Last year I thought it was a revelation that I related everything to nature. Well, looks like I've been reppin' mother nature metaphors since at least 2002. 

On my drive home from my parents' house, after I was done laughing at just how funny it was that these two pieces of art just so blatantly show how much of my life I have been in love with flowers without realizing it, the Lord spoke to me. Perhaps, it took a while for me to start following my real dreams, but He already had those planned out for me.  It is not a coincidence that I loved the name 'Rose', found my soul mate whose nickname was 'Rosie', & I would use his nickname as my business name. When I saw these as three separate events, the sweet Lord showed me tonight that in fact they were all just a part of His plan.  Before I 'discovered' my love for flowers or was even thinking about my future, He had implanted in me a dream to have a flower shop. 

At 8 years old, I would play with a name that would be my professional name and dream life, but without realizing what I had done.  In my mind, I thought it was funny how my new last name resembled this play name; I had never stopped to consider how maybe the Lord had planned it all along. When I spent my childhood praying for my future husband and dreaming of my wedding and married life, God had me calling myself by my own future name. All along, I have been a Rosenbaum. Once I was able to look beyond God's sense of humor, I was surrounded by pure peace. There was a stillness as I was in awe of just how truly perfect God's plan for my life has been, will be, and is.  I thought this was a new adventure; I hadn't considered it had always been my adventure. While I have been viewing my life as a new journey every day, unsure of where God will take me, He has seen it as a rose, just continuing to bloom as every day goes by.  This was His plan all along, and I have finally seen and acknowledged that it wasn't a backup plan when my first major didn't go well or a degree I had to get while pursuing the MRS Degree, but rather, this was God's plan for my life.

Hi, my name is Rose, and this is my handsome husband, Rosie. 

And this is just another example of how God has my life perfectly planned. It only look me 23 and a half years to finally comprehend it (or at least up to this point).  I leave you with this hope, that every step you take might be your decision, by the Lord has planned your path already.  When you follow Him, He will lead on your most rewarding life journey.

~Rachel